Genesis 31:49

"May the Lord watch between you and me while we are apart."-Genesis 31:49

That's going to probably be memorised before I know it. My wonderful husband will be getting deployed in a few days and will be gone for a long time. He will miss all the major holidays and 3 out of our 4 kids birthdays.
When I first heard that there was a chance he would be getting deployed I got really upset. Not so much mad more just scared and sad. What was I going to do with out him around. He is more then just my husband, he is my rock. I lean on him in time of need and he holds me up. He is strong and kind and very good with my children. He has proven to be an outstanding parent! Sure we have our moments. But for the most part we are a wonderful match.
So the idea of him leaving is really scary. What am I to do with all this single parent like statues and free time? Ha as if its really free. I realise more each day that my sadness for myself has faded and that its more for him and the children. The girls will surely be sad and wonder why he has to go, when he will return, and why he cant just quit his job and stay home like other parents. And I am sure that my husband will feel the homesick feelings that creep up when your away.
I know that I will miss him dearly and to fill that emptiness I will have to just lean on God. Praying for a safe return for him, and the safety of us while we stay at home. Remembering that everything works for the Good of Gods plans and timing. Even if i cant see why he chooses the timing he does tell its all over and done with.