So the grass is always greener on the other side? This week it sure felt like it. As soon as my Mr. Fix it man took off it seemed like everything decided to break.
shall I list it for you?
1. my emergency break light came on which is weird because it doesn't even work
2. my wind shield whippers decided to just go off by themselves.
3. my water spout outside somehow turned on and my dogs got plastered in mud before I new it.
4. we have no a.c which isnt really a broken problem but it wasnt hot and the moment he left it turned hot!
And after all that my daughter got sick came down with double ear infection and bronchitis and I went against my better judgment and let the doctor give her and antibiotic. 7 days later she had a full body rash!
and stepped on a bee to top it off!
I know that last part was on my 5 yr old daughter but as a mother the worry wheels flooded and I couldn't help but think the worst.
Then GOD decided to speak to me.
what did he tell me at 3am this morning as I was lying awake freaking out that my daughter might have something else happen to her.
ROMANS 12:12
Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying.
I had been praying over my daughter the whole night afraid of her allergic reaction. Then when my fear hit its peek, I was sitting in the dark and my cell phone light turned on. I picked it up to open a new email. it was Kloves Encouraging word and thats exactly what it said.
So dont tell me God doesn't talk. Because there in the dark of night he calmed me down and I new everything was going to be ok. Ok with Shyanne, ok with my husband, and ok with everything breaking around me.
Some times I think that God cant fill all the holes in my heart because he isn't that warm body lying next to you keeping you safe. But I am sure wrong because when he speak its warm, comforting, safe, and most of all the love I am looking for that cant be filled by anyone else.
So THANK YOU Jesus for being in my life and shining a cell phone light in my time on need.
Signed
-Proverbs Women in Training
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Single Mama
Well everyone I am a single mama for the next 4 months. My husband is off! I took him to the airport this morning with watery eyes and tried my hardest to not lose it in front of my kids. Which was harder then i thought it would be. My two oldest daughter were screaming bloody murder "why...and No daddy No" I didnt know what to do other then just let them go for it. I am a little worried about my youngest daughter just because I know she doesnt get it. She told the older girls "dont cry hes just going to work" I think she will realised something is wrong when a few days goes by and he isnt hear.
I think being a parent is one of the hardest things you can do. But being a single parent, or a deployed spouce, and having to be strong when you feel your weakest hast to be just a step or two higher on the list.
How do you be strong for your kids when you need someone to be strong for you? I guess thats exactly what they are talking about when they say lean on God for your support and needs because no one here on earth can always be there for you and always be what you need when you need it.
Thankfully I have a very strong faith and i can lean on it to help me in my time of need..
Now all I need if for the weather to cool down-its to hot and I have no a.c. my wonderful husband took all the window a/c's out because he didnt want them to leak when it rains but now the heat is back! yuck!
I think being a parent is one of the hardest things you can do. But being a single parent, or a deployed spouce, and having to be strong when you feel your weakest hast to be just a step or two higher on the list.
How do you be strong for your kids when you need someone to be strong for you? I guess thats exactly what they are talking about when they say lean on God for your support and needs because no one here on earth can always be there for you and always be what you need when you need it.
Thankfully I have a very strong faith and i can lean on it to help me in my time of need..
Now all I need if for the weather to cool down-its to hot and I have no a.c. my wonderful husband took all the window a/c's out because he didnt want them to leak when it rains but now the heat is back! yuck!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Genesis 31:49
"May the Lord watch between you and me while we are apart."-Genesis 31:49
That's going to probably be memorised before I know it. My wonderful husband will be getting deployed in a few days and will be gone for a long time. He will miss all the major holidays and 3 out of our 4 kids birthdays.
When I first heard that there was a chance he would be getting deployed I got really upset. Not so much mad more just scared and sad. What was I going to do with out him around. He is more then just my husband, he is my rock. I lean on him in time of need and he holds me up. He is strong and kind and very good with my children. He has proven to be an outstanding parent! Sure we have our moments. But for the most part we are a wonderful match.
So the idea of him leaving is really scary. What am I to do with all this single parent like statues and free time? Ha as if its really free. I realise more each day that my sadness for myself has faded and that its more for him and the children. The girls will surely be sad and wonder why he has to go, when he will return, and why he cant just quit his job and stay home like other parents. And I am sure that my husband will feel the homesick feelings that creep up when your away.
I know that I will miss him dearly and to fill that emptiness I will have to just lean on God. Praying for a safe return for him, and the safety of us while we stay at home. Remembering that everything works for the Good of Gods plans and timing. Even if i cant see why he chooses the timing he does tell its all over and done with.
That's going to probably be memorised before I know it. My wonderful husband will be getting deployed in a few days and will be gone for a long time. He will miss all the major holidays and 3 out of our 4 kids birthdays.
When I first heard that there was a chance he would be getting deployed I got really upset. Not so much mad more just scared and sad. What was I going to do with out him around. He is more then just my husband, he is my rock. I lean on him in time of need and he holds me up. He is strong and kind and very good with my children. He has proven to be an outstanding parent! Sure we have our moments. But for the most part we are a wonderful match.
So the idea of him leaving is really scary. What am I to do with all this single parent like statues and free time? Ha as if its really free. I realise more each day that my sadness for myself has faded and that its more for him and the children. The girls will surely be sad and wonder why he has to go, when he will return, and why he cant just quit his job and stay home like other parents. And I am sure that my husband will feel the homesick feelings that creep up when your away.
I know that I will miss him dearly and to fill that emptiness I will have to just lean on God. Praying for a safe return for him, and the safety of us while we stay at home. Remembering that everything works for the Good of Gods plans and timing. Even if i cant see why he chooses the timing he does tell its all over and done with.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Proverbs Wife were are you?
Today I really could have used a Proverbs Wife to my rescue. I decided that I did not want to miss my Bible study group. I wanted to hear from God and I wanted to spend the time with some God loving women. My 5 year old go sick and the doctor said that he did not want her to return to school this week. Then my 3 year old started in with the cough and runny nose. On top of that I have a 3mo old son who turned 3 months old today (ahhhh) who I keep with me because I am nursing. So I decided that I would just take them with me. And because they are sick i was not going to put them in the daycare with the other kids so no spreading of the germs would happen.
Somewhere in my head I was just thinking "oh what perfect little angels I have they will be just fine in my adult women's group". WHAT WAS I THINKING?
I was constantly telling them to "sit down, stop that, shhh, quiet, behave, and pick up your mess" I felt like the whole group was more focused on my kids then the lesson.
I even felt bad for bringing them, I probably should have just sat this weeks Bible study out.
Then to my surprise one of the moms complemented my children for their good behavior! WHAT? She must have just been being nice right? How could she have not noticed all their craziness! Was it worse in my head then it really was?
How would me acting like a Proverbs wife have handled things better with this situation? Well First I should have planned ahead. Either not gone and just let my kids be wild sickos at home. Or I could have planned my outing a lot better. I should have probably packed snacks, drinks, books, pens, and whatever else I know that my kids already like to do silently. Then I shouldn't have expected so much out of their behavior. I then should have explained to my children before hand what I expected from them. I sadly just threw them in a huge room and thought that they would just know to behave, a 5 year old and a 3 year old just knowing to behave! HA! I dono where in the world I would have thought that?! I learned my lesson for sure.
So out of all that I did get something out of my Bible Study Group. Besides talking with the other wonderful women there, we had a great lesson and I meet a mom who helps with deployed spouses which I have been looking to get pluged into something like that. Proverbs mom or not I am still learning.
Stay tune for more crazy parenting thoughts to come.
Somewhere in my head I was just thinking "oh what perfect little angels I have they will be just fine in my adult women's group". WHAT WAS I THINKING?
I was constantly telling them to "sit down, stop that, shhh, quiet, behave, and pick up your mess" I felt like the whole group was more focused on my kids then the lesson.
I even felt bad for bringing them, I probably should have just sat this weeks Bible study out.
Then to my surprise one of the moms complemented my children for their good behavior! WHAT? She must have just been being nice right? How could she have not noticed all their craziness! Was it worse in my head then it really was?
How would me acting like a Proverbs wife have handled things better with this situation? Well First I should have planned ahead. Either not gone and just let my kids be wild sickos at home. Or I could have planned my outing a lot better. I should have probably packed snacks, drinks, books, pens, and whatever else I know that my kids already like to do silently. Then I shouldn't have expected so much out of their behavior. I then should have explained to my children before hand what I expected from them. I sadly just threw them in a huge room and thought that they would just know to behave, a 5 year old and a 3 year old just knowing to behave! HA! I dono where in the world I would have thought that?! I learned my lesson for sure.
So out of all that I did get something out of my Bible Study Group. Besides talking with the other wonderful women there, we had a great lesson and I meet a mom who helps with deployed spouses which I have been looking to get pluged into something like that. Proverbs mom or not I am still learning.
Stay tune for more crazy parenting thoughts to come.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Bitterness vs. Anger
I heard my pastor the other day say that its not a sin to be Anger. Its what you do with that Anger that can make it a sin. Bitterness is a Sin and some people confuse it with Anger. Its ok to get upset, its even ok to voice it to someone. But its not ok To trash talk, hold on to, and not forgive. Thats what makes Anger turn into a sin. I am starting to understand that theory more and more. Over these last couple of years I have been having to do a lot of forgiving. And once you become a Mom I guess thats were you get to practice all that forgiving.
To this day I remember when my oldest daughter broke a Priceless item I had. It Made me SO anger. But it was what I did with that Anger that counted. I breathed......(inside my head I screamed bloody murder and profanity to my hearts content) but to my daughter I deep toned let her new that was not ok. It hurt mommys feelings and then I let her know that no matter what I would always love her.
Sometimes in our marriages we forget that Anger is ok. But what we do with it is what makes or breaks the relationship.
Where do I personally go wrong? Well I am stubborn! There I bluntly said it! I hold a grudge and I stay silent not allowing the other party to have a clue about my feelings. Well maybe thats just in my head. Maybe just maybe they know exactly how I feel?
Where do I need to improve, well thats easy. First I need to get my feelings off my chest. Not in a harsh way but in a concered here ya go, lets talk this out cause I am feeling icky way. Then I need to be willing to hear the other side.
Last I need to forgive and ask forgiveness of the other person. I need to always remember that he is just human too and that I need to understand he isnt a mind reader.
I need to not be bitter twards him and I need to allow time to heal and God to help me grow.
Wow that sounds like a laundry list. But thats were I need a proverbs women to the rescue.
Its ok to be Angery but remember its not ok to let that Anger get the better of you.
Find a Proverbs women/wife in your life that you can talk to when you need advice. And remember that Forgiving others is why God can forgive you!
To this day I remember when my oldest daughter broke a Priceless item I had. It Made me SO anger. But it was what I did with that Anger that counted. I breathed......(inside my head I screamed bloody murder and profanity to my hearts content) but to my daughter I deep toned let her new that was not ok. It hurt mommys feelings and then I let her know that no matter what I would always love her.
Sometimes in our marriages we forget that Anger is ok. But what we do with it is what makes or breaks the relationship.
Where do I personally go wrong? Well I am stubborn! There I bluntly said it! I hold a grudge and I stay silent not allowing the other party to have a clue about my feelings. Well maybe thats just in my head. Maybe just maybe they know exactly how I feel?
Where do I need to improve, well thats easy. First I need to get my feelings off my chest. Not in a harsh way but in a concered here ya go, lets talk this out cause I am feeling icky way. Then I need to be willing to hear the other side.
Last I need to forgive and ask forgiveness of the other person. I need to always remember that he is just human too and that I need to understand he isnt a mind reader.
I need to not be bitter twards him and I need to allow time to heal and God to help me grow.
Wow that sounds like a laundry list. But thats were I need a proverbs women to the rescue.
Its ok to be Angery but remember its not ok to let that Anger get the better of you.
Find a Proverbs women/wife in your life that you can talk to when you need advice. And remember that Forgiving others is why God can forgive you!
411
If your going to be going on this journey with me of looking to become more like the Proverbs wife lets get to know each other shall we?
My names Heather and I am a proud mother. As a teenager I never thought about being a mom but once it happened I wouldn't change it for the world. I have wonderful kids. Yes their our those times.....where I can feel the hair in my head either falling out or turning white but for the most I wouldn't change a thing. I used to be married to my girls father I was married for 8 years and sadly figured out that it just wasn't meant to be. There is a whole story to that but for now lets just stick with that.
I met a new man about a year and a half ago and we married and now have a son. My husband is in the military and is soon to be leaving on a deployment. Cant tell you were but know its going to be my first deployment and that with life changing so much over these last few years another change isn't what I am wanting right now. I think right now I would like a little more boring and normal. So staying strong for my kids is going to be a big deal.
I am one of those random people who sees something or hears about something and then wants to rush out and try it. What do I mean by this? well I decided out of know where I wanted to start tattooing. Just for the fun of it. So I bought a kit and started practicing. Then I decided that i wanted to start making stuff so I got a sowing machine and made my girls some play costumes and pumpkins for fall. Followed by a trip to the craft store where I started designing and making jewelry. which I have handed out to some friends here and there and now thinking of starting a small business? who knows. I once even debated buying a coffee shop. So you will see.
I have always wanted to write a book. But I cant ever make it past the first few chapters then I think, "No one is going to want to read this." and I just stop. Sad I know.
I have even though about becoming a pastor. That is something I have felt like I was called to do for a long time. I just haven't gotten off my butt and done anything about it. But I love the Lord and I try to put him first in my life.
I love Christin music, country, rock, oldies, and pretty much anything that has a good beat. No rap though just cant get past all the down talk and over and over verses. blah-
I love the out doors and I would love to travel the world.
That enough 411 for ya?
well stay tune...........Proverbs Wife to the Rescue
My names Heather and I am a proud mother. As a teenager I never thought about being a mom but once it happened I wouldn't change it for the world. I have wonderful kids. Yes their our those times.....where I can feel the hair in my head either falling out or turning white but for the most I wouldn't change a thing. I used to be married to my girls father I was married for 8 years and sadly figured out that it just wasn't meant to be. There is a whole story to that but for now lets just stick with that.
I met a new man about a year and a half ago and we married and now have a son. My husband is in the military and is soon to be leaving on a deployment. Cant tell you were but know its going to be my first deployment and that with life changing so much over these last few years another change isn't what I am wanting right now. I think right now I would like a little more boring and normal. So staying strong for my kids is going to be a big deal.
I am one of those random people who sees something or hears about something and then wants to rush out and try it. What do I mean by this? well I decided out of know where I wanted to start tattooing. Just for the fun of it. So I bought a kit and started practicing. Then I decided that i wanted to start making stuff so I got a sowing machine and made my girls some play costumes and pumpkins for fall. Followed by a trip to the craft store where I started designing and making jewelry. which I have handed out to some friends here and there and now thinking of starting a small business? who knows. I once even debated buying a coffee shop. So you will see.
I have always wanted to write a book. But I cant ever make it past the first few chapters then I think, "No one is going to want to read this." and I just stop. Sad I know.
I have even though about becoming a pastor. That is something I have felt like I was called to do for a long time. I just haven't gotten off my butt and done anything about it. But I love the Lord and I try to put him first in my life.
I love Christin music, country, rock, oldies, and pretty much anything that has a good beat. No rap though just cant get past all the down talk and over and over verses. blah-
I love the out doors and I would love to travel the world.
That enough 411 for ya?
well stay tune...........Proverbs Wife to the Rescue
Proverbs Wife
So I am guessing your wondering why I names my Blog Proverbs Wife to the rescue?....
Well what is a proverbs wife?
10 [a] A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
WOW! If their was such a women would we have called her Wonder Women? Put her on the cover of a comic book for sure. Called her Perfect or what? I know that I try my best and I cant even achieve all that all the time. With a Happy Smile being the servant and the leader of your house? Well maybe not the Leader because we like to leave that to our husbands as God designed but the Teacher of our house. To light the way for our children and others around us. Encourage our husbands in all areas of our lives. Its hard. We want to put ourselves first a lot of the time. Maybe not in areas we think matter but to others maybe it does. We all need to vent from time to time but is there a correct way of doing that? How do we make our children not only proud of us but Christan's, good adults, and wise? How do I survive a house that is always messy, chaotic, and full of kids that think life just isn't fair and why wont my mommy just let me have my way? I hope that by me living life and trying to learn from my own experience maybe you will learn something too? Or maybe you will just learn how crazy my family and I am?
So dear God....please send me a little bit of proverbs wife wisdom my way.
Well what is a proverbs wife?
Proverbs 31:10-31 (New International Version)
10 [a] A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
WOW! If their was such a women would we have called her Wonder Women? Put her on the cover of a comic book for sure. Called her Perfect or what? I know that I try my best and I cant even achieve all that all the time. With a Happy Smile being the servant and the leader of your house? Well maybe not the Leader because we like to leave that to our husbands as God designed but the Teacher of our house. To light the way for our children and others around us. Encourage our husbands in all areas of our lives. Its hard. We want to put ourselves first a lot of the time. Maybe not in areas we think matter but to others maybe it does. We all need to vent from time to time but is there a correct way of doing that? How do we make our children not only proud of us but Christan's, good adults, and wise? How do I survive a house that is always messy, chaotic, and full of kids that think life just isn't fair and why wont my mommy just let me have my way? I hope that by me living life and trying to learn from my own experience maybe you will learn something too? Or maybe you will just learn how crazy my family and I am?
So dear God....please send me a little bit of proverbs wife wisdom my way.
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