Ok lets get real. Today was the icing on the cake. Each day seems to get worse for this deployment. Whatever can go wrong does and I am ready to lose it. Its the hardest thing I have ever done and it hasnt even been a full week. How am I going to survive another 15 or so of these. I am really feeling alone and I just Need GOD to show me everything is going to be ok. Sometimes I feel like hiding under a rock. But what good would that do? The problems will still be there, the issues will still have to be faced.
The girls need me to be strong but sometimes you just have to cry along with them. Its hard being a parent and having to do things on your own. Its even harder when one of the children you are caring for is an infant and cant understand that mommy just needs mommy time.
God please show me the way, the light, and some peace while my husband is away and please help me to not feel so alone. please take care of me as you always have. I know in my heart you are faithful but I need to see it once again.
Help me to be strong when I feel like I cant go on any longer. And send people into my life that will help keep me on your path.
Amen
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